if you could see me now..

Oh if you could see me now

It was February fourteen, Valentine's Day
The roses came, but they took you away

Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm

Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs

Dad, you should see the tours that I'm on, 

I see you standing there next to Mom

Always singing along, yeah arm in arm

And there are days when I'm losing my faith

Because the man wasn't good he was great

He'd say music was the home for your pain

And explain, I was young, he would say

Take that rage, put it on a page

Take the page to the stage

"Blow the roof off the place"

I'm tryna make you proud

Do everything you did

I hope you're up there with God

Saying that's my kid

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now

If you could see me now would you recognize me

Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me

Would you follow every line on my tear stained face

Put your hand on a heart that's was cold

As the day you were taken away

I know it's been awhile but I could see you clear as day

Right now, I wish I could hear you say

I drink too much and I smoke too much dutch

But if you can't see me now that shit's a must

You used to say I won't know I will until it cost me

Like I won't know real love till I've loved then I've lost it

And if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom

And if you've lost a dad, then someone's lost a son

And they're all missing now, and they're all missing now

So if you get a second to look down at me now

Mum, Dad, I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?

Oh if you could see me now

Would you call me a saint or a sinner?

Would you love me a loser or winner?
When I see my face in the mirror

We look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?

Oh if you could see me now

Oh...
You could see, you could see me now

its more fun in Tioman

September 8 - 10 2012
Birthday Weekend in Tioman Malaysia

This is probably the most retard 

video i have made to date...

Enjoy our CRAZINESS!!!

as usual, 

please wait until its completely loaded

before playing the video...

Tioman from Ching Lao on Vimeo.

Video Created by Konitz

Call Me. Maybe. from Ching Lao on Vimeo.

US Trip

The Great Escape from Ching Lao on Vimeo.

U.S.A.

July 26 - Aug 6 2012

US Trip with Meann (Thank you DELTA!!!)

Special participation of Evie

A very special thanx to my cousins Neneng Mayen, Leslie & Che for making this.. A Trip to Remember

Enjoy the short clip and experience Hollywood...

The Great Escape from Ching Lao on Vimeo.

Soon

a

much

needed

break

Modern Family goes to Bintan

Spend a weekend in Bintan, Indonesia to celebrate Haydz & Ces birthday. As usual, it was a BLAST!!! 

i love my Modern Family

Happy Birthday Haydz & Ces

Enjoy our drunkard moments!!

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The Bintan Getaway from Ching Lao on Vimeo

Rootless Tree

by Damien Rice (feat Lisa Hannigan)

i just checked my old multiply site & this song was playing on my homepage. 

reminds me of how sad & moving... 

beautiful & heartbreaking it is

What I want from you
Is empty your head
They say be true
Don't stay in your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me
Like a rootless tree

What I want from us
Is empty our minds
We fake a fuss
And fracture the times
We go blind
When we've needed to see
And it leans on me
Like a rootless... 

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me
Then hate me so good that you can let me out
Let me out of this hell when you're around 
Let me out, let me out, 
Let me out of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out 

What I want from this
Is learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that's been told
Killers reinvent and believe
And this leans on me
Like a rootless...

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it,
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me , hate me,
Then hate me so good that you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out of this hell when you're around

And fuck you, fuck you, I love you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me
Then hate me so good that you can let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out, 
Hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out...

It's hell when you're around